LENT DAY 11
Perfect Love Casts Out Fear by Natasha Beune
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. - 1 John 4:18
For the first years of my life, I lost every person I loved. I was abandoned, abused, and orphaned, and I let these labels run my life. Eventually, I began to build healthy relationships, but I could not shake the overwhelming fear of loss. I was waiting for my loved ones to die or lose interest in me like they always had, and since I did not yet know God, I had 100% belief in the worst possible outcome. It was not a question of if, but when. The anxiety of it gripped my heart and began to turn my relationships toxic.
When I was 19, I found Jesus at Southside, and ever since I have been on the incredible healing journey of trusting in God’s love. Fear has always played a role in my life, but I have come to realize that the more I abide in God, and the more He abides in me, the less fear I have. I look back on the panic attacks and the tears that were once a part of my everyday life, and I can see the undeniable changes that God has made in me. I no longer have fears of the unknown because the one who knows all is right by my side. I know now that I am loved beyond measure, as He reminds me every day. He is perfecting me in his love and from His perfection, my fears are driven away.
PRAYER: Dear Father, give me freedom from my fears. Perfect me in your love and give me the courage to trust you boldly. Lord, there are ways I let fear run my life that I am not even aware of and I ask that you give me the gentle guidance to recognize and surrender these to you. Help me to live as you have called me to, as your child, as a warrior of heaven, and a disciple of Christ.